Luke 20:18 "Everyone who falls on that stone will be broken to pieces, but it will crush whomever it falls on to dust."

I already heard this from a Pastor long ago. Listen to them, (I didn't). God placed them where they are for a reason....

At my first job, I got promoted after a year and a half with the company. I thought I was good at my job that's why they promoted me. I even remember that the Senior colleague at the department almost begged me to submit my application for promotion. It felt good. They want me for my skills. I have just given birth to my second child at that time. Shortly after I got promoted, the account I was working for was dissolved... gone... kaput! The company offered me to stay with them but I would be back as a CSR. And with all the pride I have in my big head, I declined.

A few months after that, my husband and I decided that I should go back to work because one paycheck just isn't enough for us, our family. I, then, accepted a CSR position from a different company (sort of swallowed my pride). God was already saying that He is the reason for everything. But I didn't hear Him, I didn't learn. I prayed for a promotion. It is true that God answers your prayers, just not the answer that you want sometimes. He answered. It took longer this time before I got promoted. I still didn't get the hint that I am nothing! I was pregnant when I got promoted. I recognized God when then but not in the right way. I thought in my big head that I was promoted because I was good and with a little help from Him (when it should be the other way around). After 4 months, (I was eight months pregnant) because of recession, my position was declared redundant and my whole department was again gone... dissolved... kaput...

Some say history repeats itself and I believed them. And all I do is ask God why it had to happen to me. Only now that I am crushed to dust do I realize that I have been falling on the same stone over and over again. My PRIDE! I thought I got through all this success in my career because of my skills. Because I answer the right things during the interviews. Because of me. I was completely wrong and it is sad that I have not realized it sooner. It wasn't history repeating itself, nor is it my luck. God is the cause of my success and He can take it ALL away with a snap of a finger!

I fell on the stone and I broke me... but I didn't learn, I didn't listen to Him. Now I'm crushed by the same stone I was falling on.

God forgive me and take away my pride.